i think i have trouble taking orders from people i dun respect. just have to be diplomatic then haha.

the little ironies

well..... i shouldnt be doing this now...
the illegal activity i am engaging in is called...blogging..
illegal because...i am not paid to blog u see.. haha
and this blof is called the workjournal.

i see little ironies everywhere today. eg. i prefer it cold but i live on the equator. stuff like that.

and i just found out that there is a junior (not my junior but junior at the club.. for the record i do not consider myself a senior at all because i know where i stand) who had the cheek to complain how she hated what she is doing at a INTERNATIONAL forum and at the same time mislead people...well some ppl were misled. yes, i admit that i felt the things she felt before and it is valid to raise it up for discussion she's also an adult..almost 30 and should act like one.. and no expect ppl to baby her. thats the whole problem...she takes up a martial art activity which practitioners are often engaged in 'fights' and sign herself up for interstate competition and expect to be babied.......and blames the instructors but herself for her incompetency in the art.

i had this very strong intention to tell her to just quit... i know this isnt politically correct and nice...but she isnt nice either screaming at the sensei like that

quarterlife crisis

i first heard of this term in a long distance call to my friend.
i was having my physiology exam and i really could not take it.
and she said something along the line of i am having quarter life crisis.
now i am back the crisis is not over its just the beginning. haha.
how do i feel? i feel unaccomplished, sad, fat as usual. want to withdraw from social life because some conversations just bothers me but i still need to talk to ppl to let off steam. finicially burdened (study loan), and have the feeling that i cant climb out of debts. it gets worse on days that i dun exercise (i feel even more unaccomplished) not having enough money for the future, generally just want to scream.

how to deal with it?
someone tell me. meanwhile i'll sleep early and hit the tracks tml. hope it'll make me feel betterr.

what an 'eventful' week.
so many stuff happened.
was really unhappy on thursday
but felt better after class because the sensei said. look forward.
its something that we forget to do many times. that is to look forward.
we keep looking back because of regrets. but we forgot that what we are doing now will become something that when we look back we hope we will not regret.
to look forward is to keep you going. its when u keep looking back and becomes stationary that your road ends.

found this on the web. couldnt agree more

"理性做事，感性做人，谈何容易。最大的疑惑，就是不知道什么时候该做人，什么时候该做事。过于理性地做人，冰冷而刺骨，没有人靠近，自然也没有伤害。过于感性地做事，浪漫泡沫终究会破灭，不切实际的天长地久，带来的只是片片回忆。伤口会愈合、结疤、褪去，新的肌肤会重生。当看不到伤痕存在的时候，会轻易地忘却曾经的疼痛和煎熬。可当回忆起那受伤的往事，忧伤和失落却会在心头激起一份感触。表面的伤口容易忘却，而往事往往却会深藏."
http://www.blog286.com/tea/20070802/0P26342007.html

this is a crazy world. i so want to be a oceanographer.

jh: they suggest to eat kangaroo meat cause they produce lesser methane than cattle and therefore more environmentally friendly.
ey: i suggest that we start eating each other. cause there is no shortage of supply and the earth will enjoy all the enviromental friendliness it can get with humans gone.
jh: thanks huh.

i dont know whats wrong with my blogger. cause it has got this error and that error.
anyway, its been a very boring few days. the only time i am entertained is when i watch legend of the condor heros 2008 on tv. maybe cause i have got a lack of goals. so i am just slacking and slacking is boring when you are free. slacking is bliss when you are a busy bee.

what about my new task then you say? well, the thing is.. it's just sucky. i know the task wont work at all. but i have to do it. with all due respect to the brain behind the task.. i foresee with my low life brain that this will not work.

i want to switch career.

oh and by the way, i wont be watching the olympics ping pong finals cause i dun want to jinxed it. the last time i watched we got ousted in semi finals. so i am not going to jinxed it for the nation. at the time tomorrow i will go sit on the toilet till the game is over. and come out to cheer later.

just signed my contract and went for body check up.
i am sold again....for one year.