what an 'eventful' week.
so many stuff happened.
was really unhappy on thursday
but felt better after class because the sensei said. look forward.
its something that we forget to do many times. that is to look forward.
we keep looking back because of regrets. but we forgot that what we are doing now will become something that when we look back we hope we will not regret.
to look forward is to keep you going. its when u keep looking back and becomes stationary that your road ends.

found this on the web. couldnt agree more

"理性做事，感性做人，谈何容易。最大的疑惑，就是不知道什么时候该做人，什么时候该做事。过于理性地做人，冰冷而刺骨，没有人靠近，自然也没有伤害。过于感性地做事，浪漫泡沫终究会破灭，不切实际的天长地久，带来的只是片片回忆。伤口会愈合、结疤、褪去，新的肌肤会重生。当看不到伤痕存在的时候，会轻易地忘却曾经的疼痛和煎熬。可当回忆起那受伤的往事，忧伤和失落却会在心头激起一份感触。表面的伤口容易忘却，而往事往往却会深藏."
http://www.blog286.com/tea/20070802/0P26342007.html

this is a crazy world. i so want to be a oceanographer.

jh: they suggest to eat kangaroo meat cause they produce lesser methane than cattle and therefore more environmentally friendly.
ey: i suggest that we start eating each other. cause there is no shortage of supply and the earth will enjoy all the enviromental friendliness it can get with humans gone.
jh: thanks huh.

i dont know whats wrong with my blogger. cause it has got this error and that error.
anyway, its been a very boring few days. the only time i am entertained is when i watch legend of the condor heros 2008 on tv. maybe cause i have got a lack of goals. so i am just slacking and slacking is boring when you are free. slacking is bliss when you are a busy bee.

what about my new task then you say? well, the thing is.. it's just sucky. i know the task wont work at all. but i have to do it. with all due respect to the brain behind the task.. i foresee with my low life brain that this will not work.

i want to switch career.

oh and by the way, i wont be watching the olympics ping pong finals cause i dun want to jinxed it. the last time i watched we got ousted in semi finals. so i am not going to jinxed it for the nation. at the time tomorrow i will go sit on the toilet till the game is over. and come out to cheer later.

just signed my contract and went for body check up.
i am sold again....for one year.

old school (minimal usage of cgi, and out of this world manga imagination. proper fighting sequences, good old plots that doesnt try to be clever n pretenious) martial arts film/drama always look good. red cliff was quite nice. some reviewers thought it was silly. the dialogue and such. but i thought it was a good effort. actually its a lot better than the stuff produced by zhang yimou/chen kaige...their so-called martial arts flims that is.

i thought another good martial arts drama production is 少年杨家将. its something that i havent seen for awhile. the standard of china drama productions are coming up real strong. and its good to listen to PROPER mandrain now and then....cos singaporean mandrain is really....i hate to say this...disgusting... and i hate it that i speak singaporean mandrain. the fact that the actors in this production CAN ACT and LOOK GOOD really helps..

sorry mediacorp, your productions are plain lousy. its time to make stuff for viewers. not force viewers to accept the trash u produce. hey, we pay for tv licsencing every year but we get locally produced crap.... and its ironic that i first watched the abovementioned drama on channel 8.

havent been using my time wisely...that is i have been slacking a lot
i have been going down to my old work place a bit too frequently i reckon.
so many things happened.
one ex-colleague had a stroke, another passed away.
it all occur within the same week.
went for my second interview and i have decided to take up that job.
this job is more volatile and has got less security for the future.
even my future boss says that 'it might fail, theoretically speaking it should succeed...but'
stuff like that. i am excited though.
one thing i learn this week is that the only person you need to convince is yourself.
i guess the idealist in me is still very much alive...dun know if this is good or bad.
but i think if i can convince myself that this is what i want to do and see it through then i wont regret the decision no matter the outcome.

what do you reckon?

i might have landed myself a job...already.
and starting soon. then i can start repaying my study loan.
been cyber stalking and reading what some ppl i used to train with talk about kendo.
its...great to see that eveyone is enjoying what they do and having fun.
what can i do about my kendo? i don't know.
and like i said, my left knee hurts and i heel hurts...
sucks. i havent been hiting the streets. i feel so fat.

what else have i been doing?
the only' productive' thing i have been doing is playing hanon.
and i agree its good for finger endurance and flexibility (espically the left hand) training.
since i am practising without a teacher (cant afford it)
i have to be a real bitch about my own techniques....cause no one else is checking it.
which translates to countless repititions of one exercise which is really boring.
but i know i have to do it. because my piano teacher says my technique sucks
and if i ever want to go on to diploma,
i jolly well practice and have better techniques before i go and see her....eventually, someday.
what i want to play hanon well...and use it as a warm up practice.
from there, play crezney's technical exercises. all aim at improving techniques
its still a long long way.

the view from my bed, that piece of rag is actually the piano cover. and have been there since....forever.

as i posted this, i got another call for interview...tml. its nearer to home thats why i want to try it out.

but it means i have to prepare... which i havent and i want to go out... now. bye